Oh roll on 2034! haha :-p

LOL!!

kg

So sue me.

#98

OMG!! You know me so well!! This is scary! And since you do, It was your wife’s idea.

Have a great rest-of-the-day. (It’s now 3:14 p.m.).

kg

a quote I like to remember is,

“resentment is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die”

It’s a tough road, but friends keep it interesting. You’re right, it would be great if we could all meet up one of these days!

Yeah. I was getting the same message from many different sources:

worthless, worthless, worthless.

Time to take the old recording out and put in a new one:

precious, precious, precious.

You are very correct when you say that I still have some demons to wrestle with. It really never ends. I need to keep my guard up or the old patterns suck me back in. What’s really wonderful is, I hate them. I used to enjoy being angry. (Didn’t know it at the time but it was empowering.)

You joke a lot but in those jokes you repeatedly say “group hug” when things get too heated. We are alike. I’m just more verbose (Chatty Cathy).

I heard Joyce Meyer say that hurting people hurt people. It has made me reexamine some incidents and enabled me to forgive. Very freeing.

Hope the bunch of us meet some day. I’d love to meet you and Denise and Vulcanista and Mr. Poopey face and Batts and Xai and ensign joe…

Better go. It’s really late. Thanks for the note.

kg

you and I are much alike….I was raised in a terrible environment where my father was an alcoholic raging monster. My hands shook until I was 25. I won’t go into a long litany of pain, but it was horrific…..I dealt with anger issues well into my forties.

That’s why I joke all the time. I guess I try to look at the lighter side of life and find humour in everything. I’m 52 and still wrestling with the programming and issues inflicted on me during the formative years of childhood. I congratulate you for making major strides in your life and would guess that there are still some demons you wrestle with to this day. It’s nice to meet up with a kindrid spirit. God bless!

I’ll take a chance and answer here instead of in the Chat Thread since this thread is nearly done anyway…

Guess that’s why I’m so sensitive to all the anger because I used to be these angry people. Like I mentioned in a previous thread, my sibling was 12 years old when I was born and must have really resented my arrival because said sibling terrorized me until I was 16. Started smoking at 11, started drinking and doing drugs at 15 and would sit in class with my feet up on my desk just daring the teachers to notice me. Never failed a class because none of my teachers wanted me back for a second year!! Don’t remember when I started swearing but my mouth was FOUL (also didn’t help that I fell in with the wrong crowd). Got caught shoplifting two months before my 16th birthday so there was no record. It was just a stupid lark and I never did it again. Someone was looking after me…

After I straightened out near the end of my last year in high school some of my classmates came up to me and confessed that they had been scared of me. I laughed my head off because I had been putting up a HUGE facade. I had been so beaten down by my sibling and was so afraid of everyone that I started acting tough hoping the bullies would leave me alone and it worked. My anger fuelled it and it was convincing. Calmed down a bit in my twenties but it returned when customers/people in the workplace would lie about me or get aggressive. I guess it triggered the anger from the abuse I suffered earlier.

Long story a little shorter, God’s been healing my heart so it’s not nearly as bad but it can resurface when I see people bullying others or trying to start fights (uh, like on this website). Tend to get a little overprotective. Like Anthony says, he doesn’t need us playing administrator and he’s right. Sometimes I can’t help it though. Like telling Craig that it looks like he’s trolling (just looking for a fight) so he should take it elsewhere. Previous posters have already apologized for stupid stuff and been quite nice so let it go! Of course, we could always just not return to this thread…

It’s ugly and I don’t like it but anger is a fact of life. I just try to defuse it whenever I can because I wasted SO MANY YEARS BEING ANGRY AT PEOPLE WHO HURT ME. Don’t get me wrong, I still get mad sometimes but it’s not an aura surrounding me any longer. People could see it all over me. Once, when I was trying to carry a lot of boxes home from work, two of the guys from my office saw me fumbling with too many and asked if they could help so all three of us walked together to my car. One of them asked which car was mine but before I could answer the other one said “the one with the blood stains on the grill”. I BURST OUT LAUGHING (because ya gotta admit, THAT WAS FUNNY) but it was also very sad. That’s when I began the journey to rid myself of this anger (and reputation). It took a while and I did soften considerably. However, the bullies still found me and I finally gave up on the workplace in March 1996 and quit my job. The rats were winning the rat race. Like I said in an earlier post, if this website had been around when I was younger I would have been banned very quickly.

This is WAY more info than you wanted but I feel chatty. See you somewhere in another thread…

kg